Do you have a song or melody that when listened to, immediately reminds you of a certain memory, or gives you a certain emotion? Songs that brings you happiness or worse, sadness? For example, have you ever heard a certain song or tune which reminds you of a TV ad? Well i have! They say music is beautiful, i agree! To me, music is just like a painting, it can paint a thousand words. Song meanings totally differ from a person to another. For example, have you ever heard a certain song or tune which reminds you of a TV ad?

I have a song which brings back beautiful memories of me at a holiday in KL with my lovely family, anyone ever heard the song Untuk Kamu, sang by Hafiz & Adira? It’s a soundtrack from the movie Ombak Rindu. ( Click HERE for the full movie link! ). My family and I watched this movie at the Petronas Twin Tower mall, Golden Village, on the third day of the trip. It’s a very romantic and touching movie, featuring our fellow artiste from Singapore Aaron Aziz! The song is so damn beautiful, albeit short, 2mins!

Another song, Kau Ilhamku, sang by Man Bai, reminds me of the times i had with someone i was in love with a few years back. Times of joy and fun, filled my heart every time i hear the song. So to me, the song means her. If you are wondering, yes, i link songs to ex-es and relationships. I’m not quite sure if this is weird or wrong, but hey, this is how i remember them! I admit, i have a lousy memory HAH!

I do not only link songs to girls, some songs from previous years, reminds me of that period. 50 Cent’s Get Rich or Die Tryin’, reminds me of the days i didn’t went home for 2 months, i stayed in hotels at Geylang with my brothers. Also of the moment i had my first tattoo! There are also songs from Sum 41, which reminds me of my rebellious wannabe punk days Hahaha!

Music has always been there for me as i go through life, with ups and downs, i link music with memories. Well what’s yours? Comment below!

Today was a blast! My dad organized a karaoke session at my house. Seriously had fun with cousins and relatives from my paternal side. It’s unusual of me to attend this kind of stuff, usually i would be hanging out with friends if we’re having guests over but now since I’ve grown up, my mindset has been matured to slowdown and enjoy family time. I must admit though, i used to not like having people over, especially anyone from my dad’s side, but now i enjoy their company.

I did not even sing any song, obviously it’s because i can’t sing! My vocal range isn’t even close to a normal human being, sad! Don’t get me wrong though, i love to sing, i sing in the shower, alone and best of all i love to sing while riding my bike. The look from other drivers or pedestrians when i sing along loudly to a song from my iPod, is just god damn priceless! I just find singing while riding makes the journey enjoyable and not mundane, if you’ve ride or drive long enough, you would understand!

The setting in my home was close to perfection, mum cooked fried noodles which I’m having right now, tasteless fruit punch made by dad, cousins and aunties singing, the rainy weather which was provided by the “beautiful” voices of those singing! I was in my room most of the time, which was the official smoking room, had a very deep chat with Amy, my cousin Nisha’s husband, who provided me with a very detailed information about bikes, and the selling market, which has spark a great deal of interest in me to trade mine for a bigger, faster bike.

Ended the day with sending my aunts and cousins home, i just got back, so I’m off to play FIFA’12 on my iPhone! Goodnight! :)

Kony 2012, Stop Kony, is a campaign movement run by a non-profit organization, Invisible Children Inc, founded in 2004 by Jason Russel, Ben Keesey and Laren Poole. They are filmmakers who went to Uganda to film the situation there as the LRA ( Lords Resistance Army) wreaked havoc, kidnapping children, training children to be soldiers, forced labour and prostitution. The campaign focus on awareness, making sure that they are heard. They produce videos to create awareness such as the KONY 2012 video (above) which went viral on youtube with more than 70 million hits after the video was released on 12 March. The plan is to train the Uganda troops and supply them with weapons, also to build and help the affected Ugandan people, from donations from the mass public.

So am i  pro-Kony 2012? NO! I personally think it’s full of bullshit propaganda. I’ll admit though that i was sucked into believing it was true until i researched more about the movement. The reason why I believe it  was because the video they produced was made in a way to make one feel very guilty and sad. They are good filmmakers! Now I’m very aware of Kony, and also very aware it’s a scam trying to take your hard earned money.

The first reason for believing it’s a scam is by looking at their financial reports (source). If you can understand the 2011 report, only $8.6 million which is 32% of donations went  help the kids of Uganda but the money goes through the Ugandan Army before reaching the children, with most of the cases of corruption in the Ugandan Army,one can guess that not all of the 32% reaches the children. Another $9 million went to staff salaries, travel and transportation and film making. Any normal sane person can see that they are taking more for themselves than giving it to the Ugandan people. Can you imagine only almost 1/4 of the donations were given to the charity? The organization spends more money to produce films to create awareness instead of helping the charity. Logically, i think the purpose of awareness is to get more donations, simple logic! Now almost everyone is aware, who knows how much they earn this year, how big their personal pockets will be! The CEO of the organization who is a film maker is driving a very expensive sports car.

So how transparent is this organization? Invisible Children Inc is rated only a mere score of 51.52, which is 50% (source), by a charity rating. The reason they got a low score is because they lack of external auditing community, their financial reports are audited by one of them, a solo auditor. This kind of practice usually ends up with the auditor covering up tracks of them pocketing donations for themselves. I don’t know for sure if this happened, but come on! Logic!

The second reason is, Invisble Children Inc’s aim is to provide necessary training and supplies to the Ugandan Army, to capture Kony and the LRA. The LRA’s army consist of mostly children kidnapped and trained by Kony. So the Ugandan Army have to go against the children soldiers, killing them, to capture Kony! A very ironic purpose. They want to kill children to save children. What the hell? I have little faith in the Ugandan Army, after cases of looting and rape of girls as young as 16 years old! (source) So one might imagine what will happen to the people of Uganda when the Ugandan soldiers march their way to find Kony, who is no longer in Uganda anymore. Some say he is in Congo, some speculate he is dead.

Third reason, the organization have manipulated facts for personal strategic purposes. In my opinion, a sincere enough charity cause would not go to that extend for their personal gains.

Now they have already created a big awareness among the mass, they have won some of your hearts, are you going to donate?

Woke up today around noon feeling disorientated, took my medication and went back to sleep. An hour later i woke up feeling so fine, felt like i can do anything to day. The weather played a part too, the sun shined so bright unlike previous days. No rain today. Have you ever felt what i felt? Like the world is yours for the grab?

Had my usual breakfast, cereal and coffee. A good coffee can come a long way to make my day! The caffeine rush just keeps me going! My cousin, Firaas, called me, told me he was bored, so i showered and met him. Sat at the coffeeshop drinking another cuppa, felt like those Malay uncles Hahaha! We chat for awhile and decided to hang out at my place so here we are now in my room, me writing this post while he plays with my iPhone. Kids nowadays have too many gadgets, you get what i meant!

To whomever it may concern, i told you so! Life is much much better without me right? Can you see the big picture now? It’s not that i didn’t love you, it’s just that i love you till i don’t wanna hurt you in the future. I know i can’t support you, with the problems that are going on in my life right now, I’m not stable physically, mentally and financially. You might think that I’m a jerk but now I’m saying that you fail to realize that this is a big sacrifice i made so as to not hurt you. I know, when you tell our story to your cousins or friends, you make it look like I’m the bad guy. Why don’t you tell them what’s going on in my life to them, let them decide if I’m the bad guy, but I’m sure that once they knew my problems, they would think otherwise.

To love someone is to better them, push them to do great things, not to bring them down. I’m doing just that, doing what’s best for you. See how happy you are right now!

Hello there fellow readers! This will be my first post for 2012, and it’s already March. I deleted my previous blog because i find it very lame. So I’m giving myself a fresh start to stop being lame and trying too hard.

Life has been very meaningless and pointless for me, due to my addiction, i won’t reveal what addiction I’m suffering from, I’ll leave it as an addiction in general, keep you guessing, but it would be pretty obvious if you knew me in person. The good news is I’m on the road to recovery, a very tough time for me, but isn’t as tough though. I’ve seen darker days during my pre-recovery days. All i can say is I’ve even thought of suicide during those dark days, but I’ve seen the glimpse of hope, the little light shining from above in movies hehe. So with support from my family, I’m slowly progressing, taking one day as it comes.

Today was different, went to Johor in the afternoon, the usual, then dinner with my family at Gombak including Firaas, my bestest best cousin who sadly is gonna leave us soon to serve his sentence at DB ( army detention barracks ), for charges i rather not say. He’s looking at a term of 12 – 18 months. I’m gonna miss you cuzz!